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+ I tend to see the worst in people. The harm they cause and the people they + hate is the part I see. When most people would see a friendly talkative + person I see a toxic person who is disrespectful to anyone not similar to + them. I know their ways aren't reasonable so I hate them back without + reason. The things they call truths are in reality just self-fulfilling + prophecies but they choice to stay unaware of that and instead engage in + labeling them as objective truths. This shows that they are hell bent on + causing harm. They have convinced themselves this isn't just a concept + someone else created but objective reality and they can not be reasoned out + of it. +

+ This isn't just hurting feelings either. These are people who can do things + that effect others. These are people who play a role in the society we live + in. A society some live in willingly and others not. When they decide + someone is unfit for a job they are fit for because of lack of social + skills that causes harm. When they all do that there is no find another + job because they are all following the same made up rules. This stabs + deep into the life's of those who don't live and breath the rules of the + system. This is what it means to be a outcast. +

+ Hate isn't making the world any better. I want to love instead of hate but + I feel I can't love people knowing what I know. In fact I can't even accept + them knowing what I know. People who are hell bent on making my life and my + friends life worse aren't people I can show any non-hate feelings toward + even if I want to love. As much as I do not want killing what if as long as + they exist they will not let the freedom and well being of me and my + friends coexist. As much as I want a peaceful solution the only people that + can make bad people not bad is themselves and they are not going to do it. +

+ I have became trigger happy and a loose cannon. Everyone I see as my enemy + until proven otherwise and still even after to a degree. After so much I + gain a taste to inflict pain only to discover the people I truly dislike + are immune. They hold social power over me which gives them protection from + anything I could do. They are always holders of morals and truths in their + own minds which numbs them from anything I could say. The people I can harm + or insult are those I care about and I sometimes end up getting them in the + cross fire. +

+ Maybe it's selfish to want freedom and well being for me and my friends + when everyone else declared their existence demands we suffer and their + demands can only die with them. Regardless I want freedom and well being + for me and my friends. We should not have to put up with social constructs + even if the upholders will put their own life's on the line to defend + them. Though even if this is justified we have no hope. +

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