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From: nathan <nathansmith@disroot.org>
Date: Sat, 9 Aug 2025 11:08:18 -0600
Subject: Existing

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     <div id="content-list">
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+    <li><a href="#existing">Existing</a></li>
     <li><a href="#software-design">The software design crisis</a></li>
     <li><a href="#depression">Depression</a></li>
     <li><a href="#current-state-of-crypto">The current state of crypto</a></li>
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     <br />
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+<div class="container">
+  <div class="article-header">
+    <h2 id="existing">Existing</h2>--- Sat, 09 Aug 2025 17:07:15 GMT
+  </div>
+
+  <p>
+    As of writing this I have a cup of tea. Half green tea and half black
+    tea. Look into the tea for wisdom my brain says. <i>For you shouldn't be
+    drinking a thing like tea this far past your bedtime. You are connecting
+    the wrong concepts of things 1.5x above your average rate! At this rate a
+    mental dissociation will bite your finger off!</i> Dam it I thought I did
+    the thing. Oh wells (: Do you ever think of the scale of things? We have
+    concepts of what normal sizes of things should be but that's all a
+    construct of the mind. You know what is really strange? Surfaces. For there
+    to be surfaces there also needs to be empty space. People always trip out
+    about how its strange things just exist in the universe with no cause. The
+    big bang created things out of nothing. Maybe that's all normal shit but
+    our tiny brains can't understand that. Maybe the actual strange thing is
+    empty space. Would one solid ultra compressed mass with no space for
+    movement really be any different from a completely empty universe? Maybe
+    the universe wasn't created by matter coming into existence but instead the
+    opening of empty space. When I think too deeply about existence (and empty
+    space) I have a strange feeling I shouldn't be existing. It's like finding
+    out you don't have a mother and never did have a mother. It leaves you with
+    more questions than answers of how you exist.
+  </p>
+
+</div>
+<br />
+<hr />
 <div class="container">
   <div class="article-header">
     <h2 id="software-design">The software design crisis</h2>--- Thu, 07 Aug 2025 20:37:38 GMT
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