From a42d1afc4c6e3fd6d8c2baf8ea6c44747f7d2d02 Mon Sep 17 00:00:00 2001 From: nathan Date: Tue, 7 Oct 2025 05:43:44 -0600 Subject: Finished up alienation --- org/blog/articles.xml | 7 +++++ org/blog/articles/alienation.xml | 55 +++++++++++++++++++++++----------------- 2 files changed, 39 insertions(+), 23 deletions(-) (limited to 'org') diff --git a/org/blog/articles.xml b/org/blog/articles.xml index facaff9..d3ab34b 100644 --- a/org/blog/articles.xml +++ b/org/blog/articles.xml @@ -1,4 +1,11 @@ + + Alienation + alienation + Tue, 07 Oct 2025 11:41:23 GMT + articles/alienation.xml + + New type of eugenics new-type-of-eugenics diff --git a/org/blog/articles/alienation.xml b/org/blog/articles/alienation.xml index bbcaca7..dd9f47e 100644 --- a/org/blog/articles/alienation.xml +++ b/org/blog/articles/alienation.xml @@ -10,23 +10,24 @@ out of my life and people I once knew gone. Meanwhile I move on like nothing happened. My entire social life been just moving in and out of spaces. I never bother create a good image for myself because nothing ever - lasted long. Yes, I am talking about irl. This was a habit of mine long - before I went online.In school each year I would be around a different group of - Inside my body is an entity and all it thinks is intrusive thoughts. There - isn't really a me just entities passing in and out. Nameless faces forced - to take on the same name and face. A crowd of ghosts all yelling nonsense - pilots a meat puppet. I tried to find myself and found there is no - myself. No start and no end to the micro universe of the geist. It - moves into frame like a endless piece of video film. Time trails off in a - similar manner. The entities wait in line for their turn. Forever it goes - in all directions. + lasted long. Yes, I am talking about irl as well. This was a habit of mine + long before I went online. In school each year I would be around a + different group of students. Inside my body is an entity and all it thinks + is intrusive thoughts. There isn't really a me just entities passing in and + out. Nameless faces forced to take on the same name and face. A crowd of + ghosts all yelling nonsense pilots a meat puppet. I tried to find + myself and found there is no myself. No start and no end to the + micro universe of the geist. It moves into frame like a endless piece of + video film. Time trails off in a similar manner. The entities wait in line + for their turn. Forever it goes in all directions.

Why are my thoughts so upside-down and mellow gray? Shapes deposes and recomposes into what the entities decide. When I let go it vibrates the ancient tones. Follow it where it goes. When a pet runs off the places it will go may be quite interesting. Follow the loose dog. This is what it would do without you and the lease you put on it. This is how you play the - prehistoric overtone instrument. + prehistoric overtone instrument. Information provided doesn't make sense + without its given context.

Over there is something scary. I don't see anything over there or hear anything but I know it's there. It stares me down with its invisible @@ -34,7 +35,8 @@ just on edge like me. Careful I must be passing the cold air. The inanimate objects warn. They are passive aggressive indeed. This is the passage of time. Blood on the film. Spiny the film wheels go. Now that is over and - something new started. I don't control the waves nearly surf them. + something new started. I don't control the waves, I nearly do my best to + surf them.

When talking to normal people I feel the disconnect between our worlds. Their table of relations is carefully shaped. They associate @@ -46,18 +48,18 @@

Privilege is often misunderstood, it's not simply just having more: privilege is when your effort matters. A powerful engine isn't going to - move without wheels. A lot like a *puter minds depend on IO. A powerful + move without wheels. A lot like how a *puter depends on IO. A powerful *puter is nothing without IO. Some people are given better IO than others. When a powerful person makes a order it will likely happen though when anyone makes a order not much will happen. The system gave their words - more weight. The system depends you meet their demands or get + more weight. The system demands you meet their demands or get punished. They are given a giant mech with lasers while many don't even get their own free will. What happens if your below the below? That's me. I am socially f grade. Very bottom since I am a cancer to the system. Not even a deadly cancer, just a simple task for the immune system.

Why should I be nice towards those who only cause me pain? Their reason is - simply due to social norms. Why should I be obligated to treat them with + simply due to social norms. Why should I be obligated to treat them decently when they are out to get me? I been labeled a cancer and pushed into depression. My dreams of feeding my curiosity rendered unrealistic. Harmless things I want to do rendered bad by everyone else. If @@ -69,13 +71,20 @@ chopped is move out of the way. Though they will not move.

A part of me feels bad for those I hurt even if they hurt me. Those in a - glass houses can't throw orgies, though often times I do anyways. I can't - fulfill any ideals, instead I constantly faze from manic to depression. I - am in no position to say what this world needs though I do anyways. I give - advice I don't follow myself. I am saddened by everyone not taking me - seriously though why should I blame them after what I do? Though the thing - is I know even if I was more serious I wouldn't be taken seriously anyways - so I don't even try. I am depressed not because of what I do, it's due to - what I know. + glass houses shouldn't throw orgies, though often times I do anyways. I + can't fulfill any ideals, instead I constantly faze from manic to + depression. I am in no position to say what this world needs though I do + anyways. I give advice I don't follow myself. I am saddened by everyone not + taking me seriously though why should I blame them after what I do? Though + the thing is I know even if I was more serious I wouldn't be taken + seriously anyways so I don't even try. I am depressed not because of what I + do, it's due to what I know. +

+ I would say sorry for anyone I have hurt for any reason but sorry is a very + fake seeming word. It has lost all it's meaning. It's a word used by both + those who mean it and those just trying to safe guard their image. The + thing is I don't know which one I am! I guess what I mean to say is + Schrodinger's sorry for anyone I have hurt psychically and/or + mentally irl and on-line.

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