Nathan's philosophy

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When I first made this site I made the philosophy commune which went over some of my political views and the philosophy. Its messy and incoherent. It was more of a peek into whatever I was thinking at the time as if I cracked open my head and give you a look inside. It was raw and abstract but not anything anyone besides myself would read and understand. You can find the archive here.

Now that I am redoing this I want to make it more coherent, honest, and almost spiritual in a kind of way if you can call it that. You can skip to whatever parts you want but I recommand you don't because its going to read alot more like a story and will slowly develop ideas throughout.

The Geist

Throughout this website you will see me use the word geist alot. Geist is a German word that can translate into three different words in English: ghost, spirit, and mind. I always use it in place of spirit for its more flexible nature and the more abstract yet almost mathical and mechanical ways it can be used.

Case against the mythical

I don't believe in religion, god, spirits, baby fucking jesus, magic.. or any of that bullshit. In every way imaginable I am indeed an atheist. Everything can be demythized. Before you go saying "I am not religous, I am spiritual" and go running to your mommy girlfriend that someone on the internet hurt your feelings and you need your unwashed cock sucked to feel better about yourself I have much more to say: Once you truly begain to demythize something the things you discover are much more beautiful, artist, and meaningful than any myth or superstitions can ever be.

Take evolution for example: there is much beauty, meaning, and a chaotic sort of inner peace that can be found knowing the way every species comes and goes into and out of existance and how new species come to be from a sort of process that can be slow and careful at times and fast and rough at others. A complex process that requires thinking about really small and really large numbers on a scale are brains are not designed to understand. Don't know about you but that gives me a sort of sad joy to think about and makes me think very big deep thoughts. Much more beatiful than something as bluntly dumb as god.

How the brain works

The brain looks like just a mooshy wet pink blob. I want you to really think about that sentence. Imagine holding your own brain in your hands. What does it look like? what does it feel like? smell? sounds it makes when you play with it? even imagine the taste if your willing to go that far. Congrats, you just used something I call signal pathing. Your brain has many abstract components that are associated with different functions. They dont serve different functions and arent built for namable functions. Just assoicated with. By pathing signals through different components each one designed for processing data in a special type of way your brain can in the most effective way with its given resources process many types of information thrown at it in many ways. For example the same lanauge can have a spoken version, written version, sign lanuage version, braille.. the brain can signal path information can whatever snese its using to read that lanauge and send it to many other parts for processing. Things like the minds eye, internal monologue... are all just artifacts of signal pathing. Also you used signal pathing to read all of this and will continue to use it all the time for rest of your life the same your brain have always used it.

You are multiple

you are the result of multiple consciousnesses all inside the same head. The left and right side of your brain when seprated with sugery go out of sync and each one starts acting independently. Thats only as far as they can split down. If each half itself could be split in half like that we couldn't be able to test it. For all you know you could have a 100 conscious brain pieces up there. Consciousness is just the ablitity for the brain to refence itself. Kind of like how your currently using your brain to read something about now the brain works. Consciousness alone isn't the end all.

Darwinism

As of writing this I am part way through a book on the subject. Galápagos by Kurt Vonnegut. It uses a fictional story as a pivot point to go about understanding how evolution actually works. Go check out it out. Well anyways I am writing this to explain what evolution actually looks like and the issues with Social Darwinism. Evolution in nature is the process of making species more well adapted through nature selection. Its a nearly mathical process and it does not care what we think is the best. The only thing driving the process is making species well tuned to their environment. For example evolution might make a species less physical strong in return for liter weight and less required food to survive if thats what would make it better fitted for its environment. It does things like this all the time take flightless birds for example. Humans see losing flight as a downgrade but evolution no longer saw a need for those birds to fly and instead designed the birds for other uses like swiming, faster running speeds...

Case against Social Darwinism

Social Darwinism is a construct of societies understanding of the world. Its a reflection of the bias of those who have been given control, those who write the history books, those who use their artificially sense of confidents and undeserved power to keep their name alive after death. The few who are worth remembering aren't bought into the light until they been dead long enough for their revolutionary ideas not to fuck up the status quo set by the current narcissists in power. Nikola Tesla didn't get into the spot light until his ideas lost the revolutionary edge and conflicts with the people in control of the electric companies, Martin Luther King Jr was under attack by the US government his entire life but once the more progessive side of his message got forgotten the same people attacking him named a day after him and made one of his more tame speeches his legacy while the rest have been forgotten to time. Thats not even including the countless things forgotten to history. The small wars, the forgotten scientists and artists... Nothing is in a vacuum, all these things enteract with each other in a large choatic system which adds up to greater change and the movement of history. If you want to see Darwinism applied to human society and history read up on some old good Karl Marx and his dialectical materialism.

Hybrids and the origin of humans

Check out macroevolution. It goes into details about hybrids and how humans are monkey pig hybrids.

The Universe

The Universe is a chaotic system of really small interactions and really large interactions on a mass scale all running into each other in a nearly murderious manner. Everything can be understood through the lens of dialectics. Everything is the interaction of engery. The things we know and understand is just the result of interactions of engery. Even matter can be viewed through this lens. I don't believe in the big bang. Instead I have my own theory.

The creation of the universe

The Universe didn't come from nothing. Everything have always existed. In fact outside the universe only everything exits and there is no nothing, no voids, no where safe from particles colliding at speeds that makes light speed look like a childs bikes. Outside the universe everything interacts with everything forever in all directions. Its like tv static that goes on forever. Just like tv static since its random if you just so happen to pause during the right time and zoom in you might find a picture of something. It might even just so happen to be a picture of you! The universe is one of those. A time and place in a random existance that just by the chance of randomness is something coherent. Like finding ShakeSpeare in The Library of Babel. The engery interacted in a way to create what we call the big bang. Instead of creating things it just opened up an area safe from the chaos. A place where the interions are limited in a way. Constraints that makes limited yet complex and coherent structures of engery possible. These structures is what matter is. Things light speed is a example of one of these constraints. Its nothing uncommon. Its just a matter of time until something like this happens.

God

The universe may not be anything like a human brain or any type of brain found on earth but it is still a natural information processing machine. It doesn't will things to happen like a religous god. Instead its a high being bound to the same forces and constrains as us. It only has the power which are given to it also like us. It only ever sees what it can and sense what it can.

Humanities reason for existing

I am a big Kurt Vonnegut and his book Cat's Cradle made me start to think that humans do have a reason for existing but its not pleasent! I kind of went insane reading it so just hold on for dear life as I pull nonsense out of my head. In the book there is something called ice-nine. You can read about it on this wikipedia article if your too lazy to read Cat's Cradle. Spoiler: ice-nine gets into the ocean and destroys the whole planet. It made me think: I wonder if the universe brain is in pain in its own sort of way and are reason for existing is to create a type of ice-nine that destroys the universe. I have a sort of surreal depression that makes existing a pain. Its transends any sort of normal pain or sadness. Its deeper than just the survival parts of the brain to warn us if something is wrong. Its a short circuit that causes sorts of thought loops and blunt conscious that causes a sort of pain that is slow and drawn out but adds up to something no bullet or knife could cause. I often deeply relate to the universe brain and hope it doesn't have to feel the same sort of thing. The universe can't end itself and no human will destroy willfully: humans are going to end the universe by mistake just like when ice-nine got into the ocean. Humans may be fucked up pig monkey men and freaks of nature but we are good at one thing: destroying things by mistake. Evolution designed us for that. Part of natural selection is testing each species and Adam and Eve is a medifor for that test. It proved we are well designed to destroy things by mistake so it picked us.

Still being worked on.

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