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  <p>
    A while back I made a post targeting neurotypicals and encouraging violence
    and suicide toward them. Fucked up shit indeed. Not very kind and
    loving. All stuff I shouldn't have said. A part of me is angry and full of
    rage while the other pushes for a world full of love and kindness. I am
    ashamed of my blind rage though when I am down it really takes hold. That
    is not something I want to do anymore. Violence is not something I want to
    push for anymore.
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  <h2>What I have to say</h2>
  <p>
    No, I will not apologize to neurotypicals hurt by what I said. Instead
    I only say that what I said is harmful and a bad thing to push for and
    something I shouldn't have said. Here is why: you do not understand what I
    have to face as a autistic person. You can pretend to understand but you
    still don't. You actively engage in harmful behavior towards us, don't even
    try to improve, and actively deny it. Don't go to me saying you understand
    because of your autistic sibling. The only thing you have experienced is a
    outside pov, a lens clouded by neurotypical ideology. You should admit you
    don't understand and admit that you can't understand. Though I know you
    will not do that.
    <br /><br />
    Neurotypicals torture autistic kids through abs therapy and call it
    helping. Accepting us is out of the question. All of you always use
    punishment and reward tactics to make us act more like you. This is
    comparable to painting all black people white. Acceptance should be the
    goal not molding us into your idealized image.
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    I was put in a special ed class and this is what they did and I been
    depressed since I was 8 years old. Covid was a blessing when it came
    because everyone lost their social skills giving me equal footing and the
    years following were a blast though now things are back to
    normal. Everywhere I go I am unwelcome and get weird looks. Everything
    involving talking to other people is a battle and no one have ever even
    thought of accepting my bad social skills. No one have ever even thought
    about apologizing for making life hell for me. Any neurotypical I try to
    explain this to just brushes it off and/or tries to gaslight me. I am
    excepted to constantly bend over backwards and accommodate for
    neourtypicals no matter how much it hurts but they are never excepted to
    accept me. I see no hope so many times as dark as it is I feel my life
    would be better without neurotypicals.
    <br /><br />
    If you want an apology so fucking bad why don't you write one to
    me first than I might consider. Can't believe this shit. After every punch
    I have taken I am now excepted to apologize after giving one back. Spreading
    love and all that is great but sometimes people need to be held
    accountable. What I said is bad and pushing for violence and suicide is bad
    but regardless fuck you! Encouragement for a mass suicide is a very bad
    thing to throw into the world and something I shouldn't have done but
    regardless I would be lying if I said I would miss neourtypicals if they
    all ended up dead one day. I would be lying if I said I wouldn't celebrate
    their deaths. I want to love I really do but people who engage in ableism
    are not people I can show love toward.
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  <h2>Friendly fire</h2>
  <p>
    Friendly fire is a very under looked thing until it happens. Sometimes
    bullets hurt more allies than enemies. What I said was very unsuccessful as
    far as I know at shocking neurotypicals in a manner that made them feel bad
    for ableist behavior and made them reflect or even act as revenge toward
    toxic neurotypical shit. It did however cause a lot of harm to good people
    and that is something I am sorry for. That is the one and only thing I
    apologize for. I am very sorry to any good people hurt in my cross fire and
    I will not do it again.
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