As of writing this I have a cup of tea. Half green tea and half black tea. Look into the tea for wisdom my brain says. For you shouldn't be drinking a thing like tea this far past your bedtime. You are connecting the wrong concepts of things 1.5x above your average rate! At this rate a mental dissociation will bite your finger off! Dam it I thought I did the thing. Oh wells (: Do you ever think of the scale of things? We have concepts of what normal sizes of things should be but that's all a construct of the mind. You know what is really strange? Surfaces. For there to be surfaces there also needs to be empty space. People always trip out about how its strange things just exist in the universe with no cause. The big bang created things out of nothing. Maybe that's all normal shit but our tiny brains can't understand that. Maybe the actual strange thing is empty space. Would one solid ultra compressed mass with no space for movement really be any different from a completely empty universe? Maybe the universe wasn't created by matter coming into existence but instead the opening of empty space. When I think too deeply about existence (and empty space) I have a strange feeling I shouldn't be existing. It's like finding out you don't have a mother and never did have a mother. It leaves you with more questions than answers of how you exist.