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+    <title>Addressing what I said</title>
+    <name>addressing-what-i-said</name>
+    <pubDate>Wed, 26 Nov 2025 18:12:41 GMT</pubDate>
+    <file>articles/addressing-what-i-said.xml</file>
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+  <item>
     <title>Zohran Mamdani</title>
     <name>zohran-mamdani</name>
     <pubDate>Sat, 15 Nov 2025 16:09:53 GMT</pubDate>
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+  <p>
+    A while back I made a post targeting neurotypicals and encouraging violence
+    and suicide toward them. Fucked up shit indeed. Not very kind and
+    loving. All stuff I shouldn't have said. A part of me is angry and full of
+    rage while the other pushes for a world full of love and kindness. I am
+    ashamed of my blind rage though when I am down it really takes hold. That
+    is not something I want to do anymore. Violence is not something I want to
+    push for anymore.
+  </p>
+
+  <h2>What I have to say</h2>
+  <p>
+    No, I will not apologize to neurotypicals hurt by what I said. Instead
+    I only say that what I said is harmful and a bad thing to push for and
+    something I shouldn't have said. Here is why: you do not understand what I
+    have to face as a autistic person. You can pretend to understand but you
+    still don't. You actively engage in harmful behavior towards us, don't even
+    try to improve, and actively deny it. Don't go to me saying you understand
+    because of your autistic sibling. The only thing you have experienced is a
+    outside pov, a lens clouded by neurotypical ideology. You should admit you
+    don't understand and admit that you can't understand. Though I know you
+    will not do that.
+    <br /><br />
+    Neurotypicals torture autistic kids through abs therapy and call it
+    helping. Accepting us is out of the question. All of you always use
+    punishment and reward tactics to make us act more like you. This is
+    comparable to painting all black people white. Acceptance should be the
+    goal not molding us into your idealized image.
+    <br /><br />
+    I was put in a special ed class and this is what they did and I been
+    depressed since I was 8 years old. Covid was a blessing when it came
+    because everyone lost their social skills giving me equal footing and the
+    years following were a blast though now things are back to
+    normal. Everywhere I go I am unwelcome and get weird looks. Everything
+    involving talking to other people is a battle and no one have ever even
+    thought of accepting my bad social skills. No one have ever even thought
+    about apologizing for making life hell for me. Any neurotypical I try to
+    explain this to just brushes it off and/or tries to gaslight me. I am
+    excepted to constantly bend over backwards and accommodate for
+    neourtypicals no matter how much it hurts but they are never excepted to
+    accept me. I see no hope so many times as dark as it is I feel my life
+    would be better without neurotypicals.
+    <br /><br />
+    If you want an apology so fucking bad why don't you write one to
+    me first than I might consider. Can't believe this shit. After every punch
+    I have taken I am now excepted to apologize after giving one back. Spreading
+    love and all that is great but sometimes people need to be held
+    accountable. What I said is bad and pushing for violence and suicide is bad
+    but regardless fuck you! Encouragement for a mass suicide is a very bad
+    thing to throw into the world and something I shouldn't have done but
+    regardless I would be lying if I said I would miss neourtypicals if they
+    all ended up dead one day. I would be lying if I said I wouldn't celebrate
+    their deaths. I want to love I really do but people who engage in ableism
+    are not people I can show love toward.
+  </p>
+
+  <h2>Friendly fire</h2>
+  <p>
+    Friendly fire is a very under looked thing until it happens. Sometimes
+    bullets hurt more allies than enemies. What I said was very unsuccessful as
+    far as I know at shocking neurotypicals in a manner that made them feel bad
+    for ableist behavior and made them reflect or even act as revenge toward
+    toxic neurotypical shit. It did however cause a lot of harm to good people
+    and that is something I am sorry for. That is the one and only thing I
+    apologize for. I am very sorry to any good people hurt in my cross fire and
+    I will not do it again.
+  </p>
+</article>