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* About
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When I first made this site I made the philosophy commune which went
over some of my political views and the philosophy. Its messy and
incoherent. It was more of a peek into whatever I was thinking at the
time as if I cracked open my head and give you a look inside. It was raw
and abstract but not anything anyone besides myself would read and
understand. You can find the archive
[[file:archive/the_philosophy_commune.html][here]].\\
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Now that I am redoing this I want to make it more coherent, honest, and
almost spiritual in a kind of way if you can call it that. You can skip
to whatever parts you want but I recommand you don't because its going
to read alot more like a story and will slowly develop ideas throughout.

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* The Geist
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Throughout this website you will see me use the word geist alot. Geist
is a German word that can translate into three different words in
English: ghost, spirit, and mind. I always use it in place of /spirit/
for its more flexible nature and the more abstract yet almost mathical
and mechanical ways it can be used.

** Case against the mythical
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I don't believe in religion, god, spirits, baby fucking jesus, magic..
or any of that bullshit. In every way imaginable I am indeed an atheist.
Everything can be demythized. Before you go saying "I am not religous, I
am spiritual" and go running to your mommy girlfriend that someone on
the internet hurt your feelings and you need your unwashed cock sucked
to feel better about yourself I have much more to say: Once you truly
begain to demythize something the things you discover are much more
beautiful, artist, and meaningful than any myth or superstitions can
ever be.\\
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Take evolution for example: there is much beauty, meaning, and a chaotic
sort of inner peace that can be found knowing the way every species
comes and goes into and out of existance and how new species come to be
from a sort of process that can be slow and careful at times and fast
and rough at others. A complex process that requires thinking about
really small and really large numbers on a scale are brains are not
designed to understand. Don't know about you but that gives me a sort of
sad joy to think about and makes me think very big deep thoughts. Much
more beautiful than something as bluntly dumb as god.

** How the brain works
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/The brain looks like just a mooshy wet pink blob./ I want you to really
think about that sentence. Imagine holding your own brain in your hands.
What does it look like? what does it feel like? smell? sounds it makes
when you play with it? even imagine the taste if your willing to go that
far. Congrats, you just used something I call /signal pathing/. Your
brain has many abstract components that are associated with different
functions. They *dont serve* different functions and *arent built for*
namable functions. *Just assoicated with.* By pathing signals through
different components each one designed for processing data in a special
type of way your brain can in the most effective way with its given
resources process many types of information thrown at it in many ways.
For example the same lanauge can have a spoken version, written version,
sign lanuage version, braille.. the brain can signal path information
can whatever snese its using to read that lanauge and send it to many
other parts for processing. Things like the minds eye, internal
monologue... are all just artifacts of signal pathing. Also you used
signal pathing to read all of this and will continue to use it all the
time for rest of your life the same your brain have always used it.

** You are multiple
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*you* are the result of multiple consciousnesses all inside the same
head. The left and right side of your brain when seprated with sugery go
out of sync and each one starts acting independently. Thats only as far
as they can split down. If each half itself could be split in half like
that we couldn't be able to test it. For all you know you could have a
100 conscious brain pieces up there. Consciousness is just the ablitity
for the brain to refence itself. Kind of like how your currently using
your brain to read something about now the brain works. Consciousness
alone isn't the end all.

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* Darwinism
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As of writing this I am part way through a book on the subject.
Galapagos by Kurt Vonnegut. It uses a fictional story as a pivot point
to go about understanding how evolution actually works. Go check out it
out. Well anyways I am writing this to explain what evolution actually
looks like and the issues with Social Darwinism. Evolution in nature is
the process of making species more well adapted through nature
selection. Its a nearly mathical process and *it does not care what we
think is the best*. The only thing driving the process is making species
well tuned to their environment. For example evolution might make a
species less physical strong in return for liter weight and less
required food to survive if thats what would make it better fitted for
its environment. It does things like this all the time take flightless
birds for example. Humans see losing flight as a downgrade but evolution
no longer saw a need for those birds to fly and instead designed the
birds for other uses like swiming, faster running speeds...

** Case against Social Darwinism
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Social Darwinism is a construct of societies understanding of the world.
Its a reflection of the bias of those who have been given control, those
who write the history books, those who use their artificially sense of
confidents and undeserved power to keep their name alive after death.
The few who are worth remembering aren't bought into the light until
they been dead long enough for their revolutionary ideas not to fuck up
the status quo set by the current narcissists in power. Nikola Tesla
didn't get into the spot light until his ideas lost the revolutionary
edge and conflicts with the people in control of the electric companies,
Martin Luther King Jr was under attack by the US government his entire
life but once the more progessive side of his message got forgotten the
same people attacking him named a day after him and made one of his more
tame speeches his legacy while the rest have been forgotten to time.
Thats not even including the countless things forgotten to history. The
small wars, the forgotten scientists and artists... Nothing is in a
vacuum, all these things enteract with each other in a large choatic
system which adds up to greater change and the movement of history. If
you want to see Darwinism applied to human society and history read up
on some old good Karl Marx and his dialectical materialism.

** Hybrids and the origin of humans
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Check out [[https://www.macroevolution.net][macroevolution]]. It goes
into details about hybrids and how humans are monkey pig hybrids.

* The Universe
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The Universe is a chaotic system of really small interactions and really
large interactions on a mass scale all running into each other in a
nearly murderious manner. Everything can be understood through the lens
of dialectics. Everything is the interaction of engery. The things we
know and understand is just the result of interactions of engery. Even
matter can be viewed through this lens. I don't believe in the big bang.
Instead I have my own theory.

** The creation of the universe
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The Universe didn't come from nothing. Everything have always existed.
In fact outside the universe only everything exits and there is no
nothing, no voids, no where safe from particles colliding at speeds that
makes light speed look like a childs bikes. Outside the universe
everything interacts with everything forever in all directions. Its like
tv static that goes on forever. Just like tv static since its random if
you just so happen to pause during the right time and zoom in you might
find a picture of something. It might even just so happen to be a
picture of you! The universe is one of those. A time and place in a
random existance that just by the chance of randomness is something
coherent. Like finding ShakeSpeare in The Library of Babel. The engery
interacted in a way to create what we call the big bang. Instead of
creating things it just opened up an area safe from the chaos. A place
where the interions are limited in a way. Constraints that makes limited
yet complex and coherent structures of engery possible. These structures
is what matter is. Things light speed is a example of one of these
constraints. Its nothing uncommon. Its just a matter of time until
something like this happens.

** God
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[[file:images/brain_and_the_universe.png]]

The universe may not be anything like a human brain or any type of brain
found on earth but it is still a natural information processing machine.
It doesn't will things to happen like a religous god. Instead its a high
being bound to the same forces and constrains as us. It only has the
power which are given to it also like us. It only ever sees what it can
and sense what it can.

** Humanities reason for existing
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I am a big Kurt Vonnegut and his book Cat's Cradle made me start to
think that humans do have a reason for existing but its not pleasent! I
kind of went insane reading it so just hold on for dear life as I pull
nonsense out of my head. In the book there is something called ice-nine.
You can read about it on [[https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ice-nine][this
wikipedia article]] if your too lazy to read Cat's Cradle. Spoiler:
*ice-nine gets into the ocean and destroys the whole planet*. It made me
think: I wonder if the universe brain is in pain in its own sort of way
and are reason for existing is to create a type of ice-nine that
destroys the universe. I have a sort of surreal depression that makes
existing a pain. Its transends any sort of normal pain or sadness. Its
deeper than just the survival parts of the brain to warn us if something
is wrong. Its a short circuit that causes sorts of thought loops and
blunt conscious that causes a sort of pain that is slow and drawn out
but adds up to something no bullet or knife could cause. I often deeply
relate to the universe brain and hope it doesn't have to feel the same
sort of thing. The universe can't end itself and no human will destroy
willfully: humans are going to end the universe by mistake just like
when ice-nine got into the ocean. Humans may be fucked up pig monkey men
and freaks of nature but we are good at one thing: destroying things by
mistake. Evolution designed us for that. Part of natural selection is
testing each species and Adam and Eve is a medifor for that test. It
proved we are well designed to destroy things by mistake so it picked
us.

* Absurdism: a healthy cure to nihilism
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** Nihilism
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Nihilism is a philosophy many know of but few can truly understand. Its
the moment you realize nothing you do will ever matter. When everything
everyone knows and holds so close to them is so clearly a pointless game
yet they think your crazy to point it out when they are the ones
devoting so much to a big lie. *Until you can bluntly look at your
school, work, family, friends, partner, pets, political party and ask
yourself "why do I do any of this?" and realize it really wouldnt matter
much if that all came to an end you still arent a nihilist.* As a
nihilist you no longer see happiness and sadness, love and hate, life
and death: you know the universe is just a bunch of atoms and particles
and any other concept we have is blunt bullshit in its finest form.\\
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*Those who dont understand nihilism may see this as sad when to a
nihilist it is a source of blissfulness and numbness.* The real pain is
caused by the conflict between the bliss of nihilism and the painful
ways of non-nihilists, people who put importantness in meaningless
things. Those who make it as difficult as possible to make yourself
comfortable because they make up reasons you cant be comfortable and
enforce through the force of pure size in numbers. *A true nihilist
would never start a war* because they see no point in it, non-nihilists
would abosutely start a war even over the most pointless bullshit. The
flaw of the nihilist is they sure arent going to stop the war either.
Let the people fucking die we often say. Luck they are I would say.
Finally getting the type of peace and bliss that comes with death that
no non-nihilist would never let happen during life.

** The absurdist cure
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It is said when faced with nihilism there are three options:

1. Suicide, life doesnt matter anyways so why not?
2. Intelligencical suicide: giving yourself up to a religion, cult, or
   some other philosophy. Giving into the anti-nihilist lies and living
   a life of false meaning.
3. Fully enbracing the absurd. You may not been freed from our shitty
   society but you been intelligencically freed. Now that you know no
   god rules over and nothing is holy your now only bound to practical
   limits instead of social ones. No more greater meaning in the
   position of rulers and authority, now you just gotta be careful not
   to get caught lol. No more tabboos to enforce social standards with
   no moral grounds.

*The third option is the absurdist option. As a absurdist your still a
nihilist* but now instead of not trying to stop wars because nothing
matters you can fight against wars for that very same reason. Do
everything a nihilist cant but always with the same reasons as a
nihilist. As a absurdist you arent finding meaning or giving things
meaning, your in a constant nonstop rebellion against meaning! When
people think your crazy for calling society pointless you still walk
away just like a nihilist but only now you also flip them off as you
walk away. Every pointless action you do and the life you live knowing
everything is pointless is a middle finger to the universe, a sign to
the world it may fucking suck but your still alive. Its a insult to
someone not there to hear it. *The world may have no meaning but
reguardless you are going to kick it in the ass.*\\
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Society is designed by anti-nihilists to keep people under the control
of the rulers. Thats why everywhere is focused on option two. Thats why
when people who see everything as pointless go into therapy they are
always pushed toward option two. The very thing that defines religion
and spiritual believes in our society is so heavily bias towards option
two most people cant even begin to image the concept of people coming
together in a type of absurd worship of option three. *When meaning is
no more worship without meaning is now possible, religion without god or
faith, morals without anything to uphold them.* It is in many ways like
RumFoord's Church of God the Utterly Indifferent.

* Absurdist Wissenschaftic Socialism (my home brew political ideology)
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Absurdist Wissenschaftic Socialism or bsyn for short (bsyn looks cooler
than aws) at its core is a ideology that believes in bringing about
communism in absurdly unconventional means of revolution.

** Bsyn english class
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*** Communism
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Stateless, classless, and moneyless society. The final stage of
humanity. A near pipe dream. A ideal perfect society that serves
everyone. Its international and has no borders or grandfalloon limits.
*Anything that doesnt strictly fit that is not communism.*

*** Socialism
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The process of getting ever closer to communism. The journy to
communism. Anything that takes part in the process of getting closer to
communism is socialism in some way even if it doesnt like look
socialism. Anything that makes zero progress towards or prevents the
process of getting closer to communism is not socialism even if it looks
like socialism. Even just trying to make communism real is often enough.

*** Absurdism
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Read up [[#absurdism][here]]. To fucking lazy to sum things up for you.

*** Wissenschaft
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A german word that doesnt translate to english well. Its a more broad
version of /science/. Its simply the quest for knowledge. It even
includes things like art and philosophy.

** Bsyn principles
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Bsyn never claims or strictly believes that communism is even possible.
Instead it will work towards the goal of communism even with no end in
sight. *There is always progress to be made.* Think of it as communism
is the goal and socialism is the process of completing the goal. In bsyn
a comrade doesnt have to be someone with the same ideology, instead a
bsyn comrade is anyone also contributing to the goal even if its not as
directly and even if they arent aware of it. If the future is more
communist than the present than in a undirect way everything is
socialist and if the future is less or the same amount communist as the
present in a way nothing is socialist, because of that its important in
bsyn to look at undirect effects while at the same time not
overbroadening everything to the point words no longer have any use.\\
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An /Absurdist Wissenschaft Socialist/ or /bynist/ isnt a thing. *Bsyn is
not an identity.* Read up on
[[file:blog/index.html#case_against_identity][identity]]. Instead call
yourself a follower of bsyn or something along those lines. In bsyn you
can use just about anything to describe yourself just be mindful if what
you choose might hurt the goal.\\
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In bsyn studying the works of Karl Marx and his dialectical methods are
quite handy and a valuable resource. Though not every marxist movement
is socialist due to the fact they put zero effort in pushing towards
communism even if they claim to.\\
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Bsyn has a focus on using technology to bring about communism, using
machines do to all the boring mind numbing work while people get to
spend more time on things like art and science. One of the first and
most important steps in modern communist revolution is making less busy
work and opening up space for people to learn and use skills and
interests that they find genuine rewarding. Bsyn is aware that some
people tend to master one skill while others are jacks of all trades.\\
\\
In evolution a species cant evolve backwards even if it can in the long
term have more benefits. A species cant risk putting itself in a
position like that. Reguardless, a species can still take even the most
unconventional routes imaginable as long as they are always steps
forward in the direction the species needs to go to survive. Bsyn is a
lot like that, it will never push away from communism but it will take
the strangest routes there. Unlike evolution, the direction bsyn pushes
toward is a lot more "idealize" than the direction evolution tends to
push.\\
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In bsyn there are two sayings: *By any means necessary* and *there is
nothing more permanent than a temporacy solution*. They are like the yin
and yang of bsyn.

* Social Issues
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*By raise of hand who skipped ahead to this part of the page?* Feel
called out don't you (: Views on social issues aren't just some isolated
optinions, they are a part of someones ideology and a result of how
their morals enteract with the world around them. Everyone has an
ideology even if they don't realize it. For example christian views are
very closely tied to christian ideology and effects everything they do
and think. "God created the universe, gave us the 10 commandments, sent
jesus down, will send you to hell if you dont go to church..." Thats
quite view shaping and mind effecting wouldnt you say so? If a christian
tells you they support lgbtq+, women... rights they are either a fool or
a lying fucker. Dont believe them for even a second because they will
fuck you over and everyone else to. Religion is like this in general
because it was created by social darwinist narcissists who use their
lies to control. "you will go to hell if you dont follow the
commandments of an all powerful being that you cant ever talk to and you
must trust the words of people above you to know what he wants" sounds
like lies created to control doesnt it? Real social change only comes
when religion and power structures are brought into question. If it was
up to the rulers and religous leaders of the world we would still be in
the dark ages.

** Abortion
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New people are created when people fuck in the magic way. Take this from
someone who engages in same sex activities: *dicks going into pussies
isnt the only way to have sex.* The other ways dont create babies. It
gets even better, even if you do wanta fuck the magic way smart people
created plastic thingies to stop the people making seeds from going into
the human egg. The same smart people also made pills and lots of other
wonderful things to stop the pain of creating humans and the suffering
they will face when they are pulled into this terrible world kicking and
screaming.\\
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It gets worse: when people are stupid, poor, and in times of terrible
hardship they only ever *increase* the rate they fuck the magic way and
without seed stoppers. World War 4 could happen and the birth rate would
only go up. This creates more humans who are forced to live in this
shitty world. But even when people are too stupid to fuck the other ways
or use seed stoppers we still have one last line of defense: *abortion*.
This beautiful treatment removes the unborn flesh of a human from its
mother before its anywhere close to consciousness, before it have had a
taste for the pain of the world.\\
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Christians view women as private property, people making machines,
personal maids, human sex toys... even though they have the same human
brain and are nearly just as dumb as men christians think the idea that
a women owns her own body is too much. They want women to be raped by
stupid men, they want to control everyones sex life and make sure they
only ever fuck the magic way and without seed stoppers. They want more
people forced to live and christians even made sure everything fun is a
sin, outlawed drugs that give people an escape from the things
christians do, made /sillycide/ way more difficult than it needs to be,
took over the entire planet... all because their ideology calls for
*everyone* on earth to live a christan life of suffering. *Abortion is a
beautiful thing fight for it to stay!*

** Womens rights
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Even though I am gender-void (I made that up, if you have a problem with
that go fuck yourself) I am assigned male at birth and still often use a
male mask for close minded people so they will not open their pie hole
about it. This makes me feel stupid and uninformed about womens rights,
and that is because I am stupid and uninformed about womens rights. But
what I do know is that even though all social issues are equally
important womens rights are at a very high level of importantness and
should be the first thing on the mind of any true leftist.\\
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"Social progress can be measured by the social position of the female
sex." - Karl Marx\\
\\
I encourage all men to learn how to just be friends with the women in
their lives. A message to the men reading this: the women in your life
will teach you things and help you develop as a person in ways other men
never will. Women make for the best comrades. As soon as you make every
interaction with women about weird horny stuff, discrediting them for
something... everything goes to waste. If your a incel and blame women
for everything sorry to break it to you but it was other men that fucked
you over not women. If your willing to put those feelings aside the
friendships you will gain with women as time goes on will be much more
rewarding than just fucking alot and when the time finally comes for you
sex will be a lot less awkward and more personal and borderline
spiritual. And the insight that removing sex bounaries in friendship
brings might just contribute to realizing your bisexual like it did for
me. For men fighting against women will only ever keep them closed
minded and brain washed.

** Race
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Race is a clear example of how social darwinists use social constructs
to control. The narcissists in power brain wash people to hate and fear
other groups of people so they can put up borders, keep out artist and
intellectual works, keep their people stupid... everyone has the same
big, faultly, lying brain so whats the point in sorting everyone into
[[https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Granfalloon][granfalloon]] groups? Its
to make sure everyone is too busy fighting each other to realize they
should have been fighting the people in power the whole time. They lie
to us about what critical race theory is because they dont want you to
know *crt a dialectical and enlighted way of viewing race* though I
would argue crt is also very narrow and only serves as a prove of
concept of how dialectical materialism can be applied to social issues.
Just learn dialectics and class consciousness instead. Neoliberalism is
a ideology of dumbing things so it made everyone think racism happens on
a person to person interaction scale when really *racism happens on a
systematic level*.

** Disabilities and mental illness
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This society is so fucking terrible that it even has to pick on people
with disabilities. Wanta see a doctor about your fucking back? well too
bad get a fucking job! Wanta fucking job? "Sorry we just so happened to
hire a able body even you know way more about the field and your
disability will not get in the way at all what so ever". To make things
worse thinking differently in are closed minded is treated like having a
fucked up back. I was diagnosed with a thinking differently disability
called autism. It doesnt fucking matter that spoken language works just
fine for communication because everyone decided to instead use
nonsensefull looks on their face half the time. I am going to tell you
right here *there isnt any logic behind how you fuckers communicate with
looks on your faces*. Its a bunch of bullshit and all of you are oddly
on the same page about it and you will go as far as to call someone
disabled for not being on the same page about it even though you are too
fucking stupid to come up with a logical system for the face looks,
document it... you also think not putting up with ear bleeding noises is
a disability. Dont you fucking dare pretend to feel bad for us when you
are perfectly willing to fully support a society that systematicly makes
us disabled. Are brains work just fine as they are *you* are just so
nonsensable and hold neurotypical views so high up that you are
perfectly happy supporting the bullshit no matter how many of us *commit
sillycide* because of the way *you* treat us. Its a text book example of
social darwinism indeed.

** lgbtq+
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Message to the anti-lgbtq+: Many of you think being anti-lgbtq+ makes
you cool and edgy so lets take this one step at a time. Are society is
held up by social constructs that controls who can have sex with who,
what clothes you can wear, what kind of name you can have, what pronouns
you can go by... lgbtq+ are harmed by these social constructs and want
to live their life freely. By telling them they cant do those things and
making rules to stop them you arent cool and edgy, your as punk as the
fucking pope! Call yourself an anarchist? If you cant handle the idea of
sexual and gender anarchy than I dont think your ready to actually take
down the system because when it comes to that stuff you will quite
happily keep the system up.\\
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All moral arguments against lgbtq+ depends on the existance of some god
that for whatever reason declared that stuff sinful. If your
non-religous and anti-lgbtq+ your a fool and more brain washed by
religion than you think, if your religous and anti-lgbtq+ than your not
only a narcissist simping asshole but a intellectual and moral slave to
your own religion, if your pro-lgbtq+ and religous your quite
comfortable supporting neoliberalism and believing the hate has nothing
to do with a systematic ideology deployed by the church and it /just so
happens to be/.\\
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Lgbtq+ can be thought of in terms of marxist historical materialism. It
may be rough right now but thats part of the process of evolution. No
one quite agrees on even the smallest of details but thats the beauty of
it all. Right now lgbtq+ is still based in some amount of social
constructs and still a slave to some amount of bullshit are society
created but it will evolve, it will bring us even more freedom... for
that to happen you gotta accept the movement even in its rough state and
help it grow into something greater. The narcissists controlling the
system will feed you talking points to stop you from helping the
movement remove power from the them. Dont fall for their bullshit they
are just scared that the more free we become the less we will support
narcissist bullshit.\\
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There is no scientific reason sex same relationship has to be taboo,
there is no scientific reason someone cant choose their own pronouns,
there is no scientific reason someone cant consent to sugery to remove
their /fuck organs/ (no matter how harmful and pointless some random
study claims stopping them is against their freedom and saving people
from themsevles is a narcissist journy of mental masturbation: not a
heroic act), there is no scientific reason there needs to be seprate
mens and women bathrooms, there is no scientific reason someone cant
choose what labels they use to describe themselves due to the fact *all
language is human made and completely socially constructed start to
end*. Any and all arguments like "someone is what they are born as" and
"men cant play in womens sports" is complete bullshit and not based in
nature because nature couldnt fucking case less if those things happen.
Nature doesnt fucking care if a person born with a penis wears a skirt
and pisses in the womens bathroom, *a /man/ playing in womens sports is
not going to cause anyone to get struck by lightning*. All of you
anti-lgbtq+ are so fucking dumb you think that a concept a bunch of
people came up with is just as natural as the fucking trees.\\
\\
If not getting in the way of peoples lifes and their personal choices
isnt enough for your neoliberal brains here is a fact for you: *the
percent of people that detransition isnt the same as the percent who
changed their minds*. Thats right, are society is so fucking hell bent
on making it a living hell to be transgender that they detransition due
to the pressure even if they personally would love to continue
transiting if they could. The regret rate is much lower than the rate of
that and even than the statics alone still doesnt tell the whole story.
If you can only learn 2 things from me let it be that 1: statics lie,
and 2: fucking with peoples personal lifes never helps anyone.

* Economics and socialism
   :PROPERTIES:
   :CUSTOM_ID: economics_and_socialism
   :END:
This is going to get fucking messy. Well anyways, I am going to tell you
what real socialist economics is. *The USS shit is a fucking terrible
example of socialist economics.* Dont give me that /socialism only works
in theory/ bullshit because here is the truth about socialism: socialism
is not when the government does stuff, its not when everyone is paid the
same no matter how much they work, its not when everything is ruled by a
dictatorship... all socialism really is in truth is the concept of
common ownership of things like the means of production (aka large
factories, farms...). *We do not want to seize your PS5 or your steam
deck. We dont want your fucking house, car, cat, grandma...* No, we dont
give a fuck about your grandmas small sock making business. On the grand
scale of things grandmas homemade socks are nearly a hobby even if pays
for her trips for See's Candy. Grandmas socks wont make any difference
on the economical level socialists tend to think in and anyone that
calls themself a socialist and attacks your grandmas sock business is a
fool and a asshole. For an idea of what a decent use of socialism looks
like take a look at project cybersyn.

** The evils of capitalism for dummies
    :PROPERTIES:
    :CUSTOM_ID: the-evils-of-capitalism-for-dummies
    :END:
Imagine everyone has a bag of rice. Some people have very little and
others quite a bit more. In rice school everyone is told to plant a bit
of their rice and save a bit for eating. For those who barely even have
enough to eat this sounds like crazy talk while for others they grew up
on a family farm that have been doing quite well for ages. One day
someone name Tod from a good family rice farm finally goes out to start
his own farm. Tod's family gives him a nice big bag of fresh rice to use
to start his own farm and he heads out to find a good place for a rice
field. While he is traveling he quietly complains how heavy the bag is
and even think a few things "it would really hurt to be hit with a bag
this size". He finally finds a nice place for a new rice field but
someone already got few only seconds before he did. Tod notices they
have a much smaller liter bag than him so he walks up to them and bang!
He fucking hits them right in the head with his bag. He even dumps their
whole bag into his. This gives him a new idea: he starts hiding in a
bush and attacking anyone that comes to that spot and each time his bag
gets bigger and heavier. Soon its too heavy to even lift so now he
finally decides to plant some.\\
\\
Now Tod is faced with some issues: protecting the rice he cant carry
with him, balancing mananging a farm and attacking people... so he
decides to go to some poor children and very kindly offer them some
rice. He quickly wins over their trust and tells them he can get them
more rice if they work for them. He has all of them setup the farm and
start planting while he goes out to fucking hit more people and steal
their rice. Whenever he comes back he carefully one at a one pulls one
of the children aside to tell them he will give them a raise if they
report any stealing and if they steal they get knocked out by the bag. A
few get reported and knocked out until everyone started truly fearing
Tod.\\
\\
The ones who were known for always reporting got a few raises and
started staying by Tods side all the time. Tod put them in charge of
watching over things while they he was gone and even sent them out a few
times to knock people out for him. They always looked down on everyone
else and thought they got the good end of the deal. One day one of them
decided to use their high pay to start their own farm and even knocked
out some smaller targets aka kind of a downed scaled version of what Tod
was doing. When Tod found out this was happening he had that person
knock out by the heavest rice bag right infront of everyone else on the
farm. This was the first time when of the higher ups even got knocked
out and it completely changed everything. Now it was clear no one was
safe.\\
\\
As everyone learned who Tod was they would start running and as soon as
they learned he was in good enough shape to outrun them even carring a
large bag they would give up and drop their bag in fear of getting hit.
Sometimes he would find those same people days later starving and they
would finally give in and agree to be work on his farm. Once he had
enough workers to create an army he sent them to take out an entire
family farm and make it his own. After that he didnt even have to take
over family farms. They would agree to pay tax in return for not getting
taken over by his army. Tod even paid the rice schools to only teach the
things he wanted them to teach.\\
\\
The end, *I dont fucking do happy endings!* I ask of you to reflect on
this story and think about are society. Think about all the evil
companies buying out smaller companies. Think about prices going up
faster than wages. Think about all the ways these big coprations fuck us
over. The ultra rich dont get to where they are simply planting their
money in investments and working hard to grow their companies. Thats
only part of the story. They handle their money like a fucking weapon
and use it the same way Tod used his heavy bag of rice.

** Socialism in practice
    :PROPERTIES:
    :CUSTOM_ID: socialism-in-practice
    :END:
If reading the story of Tod is making you think of other ways rice can
be handled like community rice farms where everyones fair share of work
will keep things going but they can still make their own on the side,
rice market system and groups of people setup to stop people like Tod
from grow... and you compare these ideas and thing how they could be
created than you have the mind of a socialist. If you look up to Tod as
a great business man, think "well, that is just the way things are",
twist things up to think Tod is somehow helping people by giving them
jobs and feeding them even though he quiet clearly just caused pain the
whole time... than get the fuck off my website you social darwinist!
Thats right, *socialism has never had any set in stone policy or
economic models*. Thats because socialism is for thinkers and problem
solvers, people who never look at something and say "things are what
they are", people who can pull in inspriration from even the most
disconnected sources and create something new from it, people who know
things can be done better and dont see the shitty ways things are done
as something to put up with... any sort of coherent policy or economic
model would ruin the entire point, it would be like making a free form
jazz artist play a hit song perfect note by note or tell Bob Ross what
he can and cant paint. That is why Karl Marx came up with a framework to
change for your use instead of any set in stone plan of action. What is
why people like Stalin call themselves a socialist yet are quite far
seprated from the rest. Just look at how much fucking infighting on the
internet we have just for an idea of how far seprated we can really be
from each other even with so many common goals.

** My travels
    :PROPERTIES:
    :CUSTOM_ID: my-travels
    :END:
I was raised conservative and left it behind when I discovered they
didnt really stand for freedom and truth, I went libertarian until I
discovered they also didnt stand for freedom and truth, I went anarchist
until I read a tiny bit Karl Marx and got caught up with all the labels
on the internet and didnt know what to call myself; Finally, I was
reborn a socialist when I rediscovered my will to learn and come up with
new ideas that been with me my entire life but almost went away with all
the effort school, mainstream interenet, and society went through to try
to distroy it. Read books and think deeply about everything, dapple
around in everything but never stick. Surf your car radio and think "is
what the radio voices telling me just a distraction?". Conservative
radio has the weirdest fucking ads. No, I do not need to see a doctor
about my balls, I am not looking for a service to turn my 5 million
dollars worth of retirement funds I dont have into gold and silver to
keep it safe from the lizard people, I do not need to sign up my dog for
an anti ak-47 course I like my indistractable terrorist guns thank you
very much. Conservative radio: what a bunch of mind numbing nonsense.\\
\\
Speaking of mind numbing nonsense fuck the polical compass, fuck the X
number values tests, fuck all the nonsense labels for ideologies no one
is part of that haunts the polical forms and chatrooms of the internet.
No, I dont give a flying fucking about /marxist leninist maoist
trotskyist MAGA neonazi fascist antifasc neo-dronestrike-obamaist
anarcho-bidenism/. They turned it into fucking pokemon. Instead of
making polical compass memes *shut up and read a fucking book!* It
doesnt need to be boring Karl Marx book. Read Breakfast of Champions,
right now, before I fucking kill you!

** Decentralizated non-privatized and the wonder of worker unions
    :PROPERTIES:
    :CUSTOM_ID: decentralizated-non-privatized-and-the-wonder-of-worker-unions
    :END:
You know what we need? More non-profits, not the
[[https://digdeeper.club/articles/mozilla.xhtml][mozilla]] shit. Some
dam good ones. All the democrats checks arent working, they arent going
to mail you life long healthcare in the mail, mail you your retirement
money you lost in a conservative gold and silver scam, mail your
coworker the overtime pay management cut so they can buy a $40,000
vacuum cleaner no one needed... sorry children santy aint coming this
x-mas! This year we gotta be are own x-mas elfs. By that I mean you, I
am not a human (more on that later) no matter how often you fuckers pull
me into your problems. Wish I could help but sorry, the void calls for
me. Profits are stupid, infact there is a direct connection between low
profits and how good a company is. Sorry to break it to you but
non-profits, low-profit companies... get more shit done, pay and treat
their workers better... than for profit companies in the same field.
Anytime a for profit company has more to offer its not going to last
long, once they are set in place they will up prices and lower worker
pay, once Tod wins over the trust of the poor children he treats then
like shit and turns them against each other. Again with Tod, just
avoiding the for profits alone isnt going to fix much, just like Tod
they will take out everything and make things worse to the point you are
forced to either eat Tods rice or rice from a family farm paying taxes
to him or face starving to death. The only fix is to *beat Tod himself
with a bag full of his own rice*. To do that is going to need lots of
people to agree to work together. Aka a worker union.\\
\\
Striking isnt the only thing a union can do either. Now days with fancy
computer stuff strikes are nearly useless. Take a look at
[[https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Project_Cybersyn#Impact][the chile trucker strike]]
for an example of that. Though also with fancy computer
stuff you can be oh so very much more evil with running a worker union.
Get your IT nerds, webdev nerds... to join the union you can use the
companies very own website to leak secret information, make the entire
company network go crazy, black mail a boss with office sex footage
found on the CCTV... Tech nerds, office workers, middle management,
cleaning and HAV people... often dont like to work together and alot of
them dont even feel like a worker union could help them and when most
worker unions are bought out, too small, and not creative enough or bald
enough they actually do cant help a handful of the time. *Thats why you
human skill people and thinking skill people gotta team up!* I am not a
human so its a given I dont have the human skills so without a human
skill person I cant do much and so far no human skill person who isnt
scared of me in sight.

* Nonhumanism
   :PROPERTIES:
   :CUSTOM_ID: nonhumanism
   :END:
*I am not a human*. Yes, *you are a human* (most likely). But not me.
Dont go screaming to be with the "but your dna" or "you were born from
humans" bullshit. You are a wolf and I am a coyote. Quite similar but
also just different enough to be a different species. The line between
different species isnt as far as you might think and is something
scientists often debate.\\
\\
Some nonhuman things about me include:

+ Brain and thought pattern differences that medically show up as autism
  but differ greatly from the DSM-V and others diagnosed with autism I
  have met.
+ Different effects from marijuana and kratom then what the humans get.
+ Differences in how my nervous system works.
+ As a little child I grew at a freakishly fast rate and stopped growing
  much younger than any other human.
+ I was able to grow a full beard nearly freakishly young.
+ I require closer to 10 or more hours of sleep to be fully rested
  instead of 8.
+ I am a bit colorblind and sensitive to light
+ Differences in how often I eat and weight gain/loss. I naturally eat
  alot at once than go a while without eating and I dont gain or lose
  weight more than 2.3kg and I stay around 68kg even though I am around
  183cm tall. The weight loss and gain can happen in a very short amount
  of time.
+ Light makes me sleep like a baby and makes it harder to wake up. It
  takes me longer to fall asleep in the dark but its easier to wake up
  in the dark
+ Differences in how my brain handles habit forming, dopamine, and
  addiction.
+ Differences in body propartions

** Living in human society as a nonhuman
    :PROPERTIES:
    :CUSTOM_ID: living-in-human-society-as-a-nonhuman
    :END:
Living in human society as a nonhuman *fucking sucks*. Imagine being a
cat living in dog society. Everything is built with dogs in mind, jobs
shifts are all planned around dog hours, the restaurants serve dog food
in dog propartions, the stores sell only dog products, the toys are dog
toys, the parks are designed for dogs, the vets specialize in dogs,
everyone talks with barks instead of meows... If your a cat in that
society you really gotta look out for yourself because no one else can
understand you even if they pretend to. Everyone will give you advice
that does not work.

** Employment and nonhumanism
    :PROPERTIES:
    :CUSTOM_ID: employment-and-nonhumanism
    :END:
Nightshifts: the greatest blessing and curse. I am still getting through
school and lack any employment history as of writing this. Most of the
options for that are customer service jobs. When people can barely
understand you when you talk, you can only do one task at a time, lack
any people skills, need time to work on your interests... that aint
going to work. And to make it worse employers discriminate against me.
If you arent working customer service employers still want people
skills. They want their toilet cleaners and floor sweepers to have
people skills. They want them to spend half their shift sitting through
pointless meetings. Thats the magic of nightshifts! Only freaks and
weirdos apply for nightshift and they have a high turn over rate. All
the people who call for pointless meetings are asleep and you only ever
have to talk to a hand full of people. Do you know what I do with the
time saved not going to pointless meetings? I do homework, read, take
naps, and work on this site! I love the outdoors and I get cold too
easily to go out there at night (I dont mind the dark) so I often wish I
could work days but with the no bullshit vibe of the night. I hope to
one day go self employmented to avoid all the human bullshit.

** Revolution and nonhumanism
    :PROPERTIES:
    :CUSTOM_ID: revolution-and-nonhumanism
    :END:
When I sit on my ass and think about all the shit going on I often think
about the song /The Revolution Will Not be Televised/ by Gil
Scott-Heron. Then I remember that even though I grew up in what many
call a very inclusive generation all you mother fuckers treated me like
shit! Thats because the modern stage of inclusiveness *does not extend
to neurodivergents completely and does not extend to nonhumans at all*.
Think of it this way, the american civil war got rid of legal slavery
but was quite limited, the civil right movement did a bit more... same
with how the lgbtq+ movement has evoluted over the years. The problem is
nonhumanism is limited to just me and maybe a few others I dont have the
resources to track down (if you are one feel free to send me a email or
something) and even than we wouldnt have any common ground except being
nonhuman.\\
\\
I know revolution is not perfect and I am willing to engage in pushing
the evolution so we at least get sometype of change but I will let you
know *its up to you to make change*. I am in full support of modern
progressive movements even if I know they are lacking something. Even
than I dont have the power to engage in revolution the sameway you can
due to the fact I am a nonhuman. I am not welcome in social structures
and only servce as a fly on the wall, no one understands me when I talk,
I have no power what so ever to push a message across. As a human you
have special powers I couldnt even dream of having. You can engage in
those social structures, get your fair share of message pushing power.
Even as small as it might seem to you as someone without those powers I
will let you know its greater than you believe. Its a superpower!\\
\\
Message to my generation: even though *you* treated me like shit I beg
of you to engage in progessive revolution in all the ways I cant. Dont
be one of those gen-z trump supporters and dont stop at voting blue
either. The revolution will not be +televised+ on social media!

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