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diff --git a/org/blog/articles/addressing-what-i-said.xml b/org/blog/articles/addressing-what-i-said.xml deleted file mode 100644 index abba375..0000000 --- a/org/blog/articles/addressing-what-i-said.xml +++ /dev/null @@ -1,69 +0,0 @@ -<article> - <p> - A while back I made a post targeting neurotypicals and encouraging violence - and suicide toward them. Fucked up shit indeed. Not very kind and - loving. All stuff I shouldn't have said. A part of me is angry and full of - rage while the other pushes for a world full of love and kindness. I am - ashamed of my blind rage though when I am down it really takes hold. That - is not something I want to do anymore. Violence is not something I want to - push for anymore. - </p> - - <h2>What I have to say</h2> - <p> - No, I will not apologize to neurotypicals hurt by what I said. Instead - I only say that what I said is harmful and a bad thing to push for and - something I shouldn't have said. Here is why: you do not understand what I - have to face as a autistic person. You can pretend to understand but you - still don't. You actively engage in harmful behavior towards us, don't even - try to improve, and actively deny it. Don't go to me saying you understand - because of your autistic sibling. The only thing you have experienced is a - outside pov, a lens clouded by neurotypical ideology. You should admit you - don't understand and admit that you can't understand. Though I know you - will not do that. - <br /><br /> - Neurotypicals torture autistic kids through abs therapy and call it - helping. Accepting us is out of the question. All of you always use - punishment and reward tactics to make us act more like you. This is - comparable to painting all black people white. Acceptance should be the - goal not molding us into your idealized image. - <br /><br /> - I was put in a special ed class and this is what they did and I been - depressed since I was 8 years old. Covid was a blessing when it came - because everyone lost their social skills giving me equal footing and the - years following were a blast though now things are back to - normal. Everywhere I go I am unwelcome and get weird looks. Everything - involving talking to other people is a battle and no one have ever even - thought of accepting my bad social skills. No one have ever even thought - about apologizing for making life hell for me. Any neurotypical I try to - explain this to just brushes it off and/or tries to gaslight me. I am - excepted to constantly bend over backwards and accommodate for - neourtypicals no matter how much it hurts but they are never excepted to - accept me. I see no hope so many times as dark as it is I feel my life - would be better without neurotypicals. - <br /><br /> - If you want an apology so fucking bad why don't you write one to - me first than I might consider. Can't believe this shit. After every punch - I have taken I am now excepted to apologize after giving one back. Spreading - love and all that is great but sometimes people need to be held - accountable. What I said is bad and pushing for violence and suicide is bad - but regardless fuck you! Encouragement for a mass suicide is a very bad - thing to throw into the world and something I shouldn't have done but - regardless I would be lying if I said I would miss neourtypicals if they - all ended up dead one day. I would be lying if I said I wouldn't celebrate - their deaths. I want to love I really do but people who engage in ableism - are not people I can show love toward. - </p> - - <h2>Friendly fire</h2> - <p> - Friendly fire is a very under looked thing until it happens. Sometimes - bullets hurt more allies than enemies. What I said was very unsuccessful as - far as I know at shocking neurotypicals in a manner that made them feel bad - for ableist behavior and made them reflect or even act as revenge toward - toxic neurotypical shit. It did however cause a lot of harm to good people - and that is something I am sorry for. That is the one and only thing I - apologize for. I am very sorry to any good people hurt in my cross fire and - I will not do it again. - </p> -</article> |