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+  <p>
+    I tend to see the worst in people. The harm they cause and the people they
+    hate is the part I see. When most people would see a friendly talkative
+    person I see a toxic person who is disrespectful to anyone not similar to
+    them. I know their ways aren't reasonable so I hate them back without
+    reason. The things they call truths are in reality just self-fulfilling
+    prophecies but they choice to stay unaware of that and instead engage in
+    labeling them as objective truths. This shows that they are hell bent on
+    causing harm. They have convinced themselves this isn't just a concept
+    someone else created but objective reality and they can not be reasoned out
+    of it.
+    <br /><br />
+    This isn't just hurting feelings either. These are people who can do things
+    that effect others. These are people who play a role in the society we live
+    in. A society some live in willingly and others not. When they decide
+    someone is unfit for a job they are fit for because of lack of social
+    skills that causes harm. When they all do that there is no <i>find another
+    job</i> because they are all following the same made up rules. This stabs
+    deep into the life's of those who don't live and breath the rules of the
+    system. This is what it means to be a outcast.
+    <br /><br />
+    Hate isn't making the world any better. I want to love instead of hate but
+    I feel I can't love people knowing what I know. In fact I can't even accept
+    them knowing what I know. People who are hell bent on making my life and my
+    friends life worse aren't people I can show any non-hate feelings toward
+    even if I want to love. As much as I do not want killing what if as long as
+    they exist they will not let the freedom and well being of me and my
+    friends coexist. As much as I want a peaceful solution the only people that
+    can make bad people not bad is themselves and they are not going to do it.
+    <br /><br />
+    I have became trigger happy and a loose cannon. Everyone I see as my enemy
+    until proven otherwise and still even after to a degree. After so much I
+    gain a taste to inflict pain only to discover the people I truly dislike
+    are immune. They hold social power over me which gives them protection from
+    anything I could do. They are always holders of morals and truths in their
+    own minds which numbs them from anything I could say. The people I can harm
+    or insult are those I care about and I sometimes end up getting them in the
+    cross fire.
+    <br /><br />
+    Maybe it's selfish to want freedom and well being for me and my friends
+    when everyone else declared their existence demands we suffer and their
+    demands can only die with them. Regardless I want freedom and well being
+    for me and my friends. We should not have to put up with social constructs
+    even if the upholders will put their own life's on the line to defend
+    them. Though even if this is justified we have no hope.
+  </p>
+</article>